I should be the last person to talk about this topic, however since it’s my blog and I pretty much have creative control over what I do and what I talk about, this has been the topic chosen. Okay, so, putting yourself out there, what does that even mean? Well I have, in my opinion, the best and most accurate definition: To get out of your comfort zone. This means to try and do different things, maybe help others, try a different ice cream flavor, ask your crush on a date, telling the person you like how you feel about them, asking for a promotion, etc. Whatever it is that you won’t usually do or feel most scared about.
Ugh in my personal and most embarrassing experience, this doesn’t usually work for me as I would like to. I’m of the idea that everyone should tell their feelings, if something is bothering them to speak about it and if they are passionate about something to speak about it. Last year I told my crush how I felt about him, and it was a nerve raking experience. I don’t usually go out there telling people how I feel about them even less the person I like. I had the courage to put myself out there and let the words roll out of my mouth.
As they say, the person who doesn’t risks doesn’t win. One of the few honest and truthful statements I’ve ever heard. However, I was also thinking and doing some meditation, having to do this blog has to be one of the most awesome and scariest things I’ve done in my life. I’m 18 by the way, but I put myself out there to a broader audience and sometimes I feel like it’s just a shout to an empty space. It gives me so much anxiety to think that no one is reading this, so if you are, let me know your thoughts and comment down below.
I wonder what would happen if we say what we want to say and let the worlds roll out of our mouths, I wonder what would happen if we dare to be brave. I relate to that so much. Believe me when I say it’s hard to put yourself out there. I know, it is complicated, it is scary because what if no one likes who we are? The mere thought it’s just disgusting because we’re special in our own way. The world can be tough, and I’ve learned to accept that, NOT EVERYONE IS GOING TO LIKE ME! And I’m fine with it.
Still figuring out that, but the roots of it all comes from my own insecurities, self-value. Self-love it’s hard! I mean, it’s hard to love yourself, because sometimes you don’t wake up in the mood, you feel certain way, or you just don’t know how to do it. Building the confidence to put yourself out there is not so easy but it’s important to take baby steps, start by looking at yourself in the mirror and say “I love you” or “You’re beautiful”, smile to someone in the street or say hi. I’m learning everyday how valuable I am and how I won’t settle for less than what the world can offer me. This helps me to put myself out there, find a job and get it. I have a new job, by the way, for a moment I thought I wouldn’t make it, but I did. I recently sent a message that I insanely and instantly regretted sending but got over it and well it doesn’t matter anymore, there are people dying so my issues are not that really that big.
Finally, and if you were still wondering about how it ended with my last crush, well… I told him how I felt about him, and he just didn’t feel the same way, it was a relief because I was wondering all the time if he liked me. To conclude, enjoy life and what brings to you, try new things, experience it and you’ll find many ways in which it’ll surprise you. Maybe the love of your life is at just one text from happening, make it happen, maybe the promotion that you want is at one question for you to ask your boss, make it happen. Put yourself out there.