So after several mental breakdowns, a few shots, one bottle of wine, one full pizza, a few episodes of Grey’s Anatomy, endless sad songs, throwing up, a two hour call with my best friend, a shower and crying I can finally say I’m fine. It’s like when you get really sick and need to do a cleanse or detox, it’s so relaxing. Now got to move on to the succeeding chapter. Priorities change and it’s okay when you depart from the path for a moment, as long as you return.
To move forward you need to undertake a few steps back. Does that make sense? In our way to success, there’ll be many trials, but where there is desire, there is going to be a flame. Where there is a flame, someone’s bound to get burned but just because it burns, doesn’t mean you’re going to die, you got to get up and try. It’s going to be tough, not easy, not even a little, but at the end worth it, during that journey it’s important to never forget where you come from, to stay true to yourself. Very often I must remind to myself this, who am I, where I want to be and more importantly why, so I take a few steps backs. Going back to my roots always seems like the perfect solution and remember that no matter how hard the past was, I can always begin again.
I was bored and tired, waiting for changes that just aren’t coming. I’m still young and I have so much to do. Probably I played dumb, but I knew exactly what I was doing. I need love but I like it when there’s danger. I used to overwhelm and cry tears of all the things they talked about me. The rumors are terrible and cruel but so what if most of them are true? Cause sometimes I think I can build a castle out of all the bricks they threw at me, and everyday feels like a battle. I’m a new romantic and heartbreak is my national anthem, I’ll sing it proudly cause I’ll be too busy dancing to get knocked off my feet. New romantics, the best people in life are free. I’ll think that maybe too often, the thing I want the most is the one thing I can’t have. Desire leaves people heartbroken, it wears them out. Desire can wreck lives and as tough as waning something can be, the people who suffer the most are those who don’t recognize what they want. I desire a vast life, success and I know I’ll make it. I am passionate enough to take the wheel and navigate the road to success.